Bad Bad Day..

Have you ever felt pain that punches a hole to your spirit. It hurts so bad all you can do is cry and pray that this will at least stop for a second? I thought that having my bone marrow biopsy was the worst.. i have proven myself wrong again! I'm talking about the pain i feel inside of me. A pain that tortures your whole being and keeps burrowing inside until you wanna give in and let it take over. I wish there was something..anything i can do to numb it. But no! Nothing, i think nothing can take this away. I am fighting. Fighting really hard to hold on to any hope left inside of me. I want to. I need to.